BACK TO NORMAL EVE^^~

Lately I ve been thinking........................................................
Something's wrong............................
very the wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i couldnt figure out what was the problem=(
why
why this happen to me??????????????????
F.I.N.A.L.L.Y i ve got it!
I know what's wrong
I ve not been myself at all lately
If you are frequent 'reader' of mah blog then u should be able to address my problem.
So i decided to be myself in this blog....
Now,welcome the 'normal' Evelyn back in action-.-!
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TA DA DA DA DA!!!!!!!!! -.-

*faints*

ini baru evelyn yang sebenar mah,obsessed dengan rupa sendiri-.-!

Ya,u can bang ur head onto the walls if u feel stupid for checking out this latest post of mine.

HIAKS HIAKS=D

dISCLAIMER:I will not take any responsibility for any injuries,death or losses suffered from reading post.THANK YOU-.-

TIPS on winning a gal's heart[Part 2]

DOs and DONTs......

1. DO spent some time on figuring out WHAT SHE WANTS and WHAT SHE NEEDS.In this case,you will know WHAT TYPE OF GUY SHE NEEDS OR WANTS.so lihai lihai sikit loh,once u know that,if u think you REALLY like her liao,sacrifice a bit for her
2. *****BEAR THIS IN MIND*****This is so so so so so so five starimportant! DONT let her know that you want to chase her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Or else you might freak her out...UNLESS you so very the sure that SHE IS CRAZY OF YOU,then different story la...
3. Anyway,DO tell and ask opinions from your friends bout the gal.FRIENDS bah,they sure will tell you if that gal suits you or you actually suit that gal or not?Plus they may provide other important,relevant tips for you.If they dont THEN CONFIRM UR THAT FREN WANNA GRAB THE GAL FROM YOU!!!
4. DONT be too rush!Too rush is not a good approach.DO it step by step.If the gal is not your fren yet,then servay la what club she join kah in skul/college/uni so that you join also...Jia Jia as if you get to know here there-.- Always start from friends relationship first!Cos based on my personal experience,LIGHTNING relationship NEVER LAST long.
5. DO try to talk or have a friendly chat with her.ANYWAY MAKE SURE you have the 'right' topic.....DONT start with,wah today weather so good hor?Cos thats L.A.M.E
6. DO always stay by her side just like a guardian angel.At her time of trials and sorrows...BE THERE FOR HER.believe me,this works!Somehow she will realise how much you matter in her life cos you were there,not someone else when she need someone.
7. I dont know why but this is popular.DO have a good SENSE OF HUMOUR.Try to tell her jokes or find some funny topics when you talk to her..This will make her feel more relaxed and of course,enhance your relationship development.
8. DONT be too open minded even if she is one.Cos she will feel you not serious.If later on you confess she might take you as a cincai-cincai guy....cincai guy is a NO NO to be a bf
9. When u see her, call her name and greet her. Or give a smile to her. If can pls talk with her for a second. Warning>> when u smile, ur face dont be cheeky or horney looking!! That will scare her..hehe remember!
10. When you confirmed that she feels comfortable hanging out with you,try to plan outings with her.DO PLAN PRECISELY.for eg dont plan bring her go Buntal eat seafood without knowing she actually has seafood allergy-.- kantoi!
11. When you talk to her,look into her eyes.EYES CONTACT rules!This one ah,70% success!
12. DONT SPEED when she is in the car.DONT act like Ah Beng okay.Unless your target is AH LIAN.who cares....remember,she will feel good if she knows that you do appreciate her life-.-!so pls dont drive recklessly
13. DO open car door for her=) bit old fashion but now rarely got guy would do this so it will be a merit if you do.
14. DONT act like UHU GUM-.- she needs freedom and time of her own.
15. BE a gentleman lah!DONT let her pay for whatever lah during your outings together,not to say girls r materialistic but if you really like her dont tell me she not worthful for buying all the food/drinks/movie tickets???
16. DO surprise her with small gifts.*sweet*
17. DO love both her strong and weak points........EVERY gal need a guy like this.
18. When she is sick,be her 'nurse'.
19. DONT swear/utter rude words!unless she is Ah Lian.Ah Lian love her bf speak rudely!
20. DO give her girlfriends good impression. bribe themAhem DONT FORGET as besties,we always stand the most important role to give opinions about admirers...which one better which one not qualified etc *evil grins*

When u do all the steps above, Maybe she already know that u like her.

If u think u want to continue on with her as a friend, a close friend in borderline as a lover, u can... But not too long.

It depend on u feeling toward her and her feeling toward u.

When the right time is coming, u can know ur answer.

RIGHT time+RIGHT person+RIGHT place=RIGHT and SUCCESSFUL relationship

TIPS on winning a gal's heart[part 1]

due to one of my friend's requestI am going to reveal some tips on chasing a girl.Well this is at least what I think so dont spam me if you think otherwise......
First and foremost................................
You must,i said MUST

1. Make sure she is THE ONE.If she is not,what for you learn all these tips for?Wanna hurt her at the end of the day after u kao-ed her?DONT ever break a girl's heart!cos i will stab you to death
2. So u must analyse ur target in her personalities.Which type of girl is your target?Well,in brief,gals can be categorised into these few types....

1- Miss Sweet

Miss Sweet is a woman who's positive, content with her life, always upbeat -- and just a blast to be around. She's a genuine person without a bitch bone in her body. She's always truly happy to see you and you find yourself looking forward to spending time with her. Miss Sweets are usually snapped up out of the dating market right away, so they're pretty rare. But if you can find one, you've got a real treasure on your hands.

2- Miss Equality

This type of woman is a true feminist -- not one of the radical man-haters, or the hypocritical pseudo-feminists who think that equality means "I demand equal rights and an equal salary, but a man still has to pay for me." The Miss Equalitys of the world genuinely like men, and understand that equality means equality across the board, from holding the door open to fighting on the front lines. They believe that a relationship should be a 50/50 partnership, and are more than willing to shoulder their half of the responsibilities and dating expenses -- just because it's the right thing to do.

3- Miss Sexual

You should be so lucky to encounter one of these! Miss Sexual loves men and loves sex -- and makes no bones about it. She's not selling it, she's not using it as a tool to manipulate men -- she just naturally craves it. Miss Sexual is not to be confused with a nymphomaniac, who suffers from psychological problems -- rather, she has somehow bypassed the female societal training of auctioning off the use of her vagina to the highest bidder. For this reason, most other women hate her, because she's giving it away free of charge. But men love her because she's a free spirit who's actually honest about her sex drive. Very rare, but worth searching the ends of the earth for.

4- Miss Best Friend

Closely aligned with Miss Sweet, Miss Best Friend is another joy to be around. She's the kind of woman you're totally in sync with -- you like the same things, watch the same TV shows, enjoy going to the same places. You can spend five minutes with her and think you've known her for years. She's always on your side, laughs at all your jokes, and calls you just to say "hi" because she genuinely misses you. She's great just to hang with. A word of warning, though -- with Miss Best Friend, you have to make your sexual interest known from day one because if she gets it into her head that you are going to be "just friends," it's almost impossible to change her mind.

5- Miss Straightforward

This is the type of woman who knows how to communicate . With Miss Straightforward, there are no games, no expecting men to be mind readers, no behavior based on ridiculous, female-biased advice from articles in Cosmo or The Rules . Miss Straightforward will pick up the phone and ask you out. She will do what she says she will do -- not say one thing and do just the opposite. Although she may be blunt at times, at least you'll know where you stand and you'll never have to spend hours trying to decode contradictory or emotion-based female behavior.

6- Miss Independent

This is a good woman to find if you don't have a lot of time to invest in a relationship or you're the type of guy who needs a lot of space. Miss Independent has a real life of her own and is happily going in her own positive direction. She's the type who wants a man in her life, but doesn't need a man in her life. And she certainly isn't looking for men to solve all her problems or blame when things don't go her way.

7- Miss Loyal

Miss Loyal will never cheat on you or constantly be on the lookout for a "better deal." When you go out, she won't be scanning the room for other guys, but will keep her attention focused on you, the man in her life. She's also more apt to stick around if times get tough.

8- Miss No Pressure

While many women are chomping at the bit to get married, Miss No Pressure hasn't fallen prey to any such agenda. She's happy just to be with you. So you don't get any, "Where is our relationship going?", or hint-dropping about the future, or window-shopping at the jewelry store. She may want to get married at some point, but she's in no hurry -- she thinks that if it happens, it will just happen naturally.

9- Miss Secure

Miss Secure accepts herself as she is and is comfortable with her good points, as well as her bad. And she feels the same about you. Miss Secure doesn't need constant attention to shore up a sagging ego, has tons of self-esteem, and is always going in her own positive direction.10- Miss PersonalityMiss Personality is a great find. She might not be up for first prize in a beauty contest (although she could be), but her intelligence, wit and sparkling presence just light up the room, and she draws people like a magnet. Her personality is so charming that it easily overcomes any deficiencies she might have in the looks department, just because she's so great to be with.

11- Miss Low Maintenance

The rarest of the rare, Miss Low Maintenance is the most atypical of modern women. She really doesn't care about how much money you have -- she just likes you for yourself and not for what she can take from you. She's likely to be a true feminist, and will gladly pay her share of the dating expenses. If you can find a Miss Low Maintenance, hang on to her for dear life!

12- Miss Right For You A lot of guys choose women who are "arm candy" -- good-looking trophy girlfriends who bolster their status among other men or counteract their own insecurities. That's all well and good, but if you find a woman who makes you happy, regardless of looks, age or social status -- or what any other guy thinks -- then you have definitely won at the mating game.

once you make sure which category she falls within,then you can continue reading other tips which will be revealed in my next post....

*stay tuned*

TOP 25 embarassing incidents in mah life

Tada
Be it for eveforever.blogspot.com's haters,lovers *cough*,readers,passerby...
I bet this will be the post you'd love to read the most as I'm gonna reveal tops secrets of mine which only few of these might ve been known earlier but certainly not all LOL

*drum rolls*

1. When I was in Primary 1,I forgot was rushing, afraid to miss my school bus so I DID NOT WEAR PANTIES TO SCHOOL.

2. My music teacher refused to believe thought that I am Chinese-.-
3. OK I confidently believe that all of us did this.No?Fine.When I was few months old my mummy was walking out the kitchen when she realised I was eating my own POO POO(which were overflowed out off my diapers-.-).
4. I shitted in my primary 4 uniform in class -.-
5. Primary 3?mayb 4?I dreamwalked and mistook the chair im my guest room as toilet bowl and shitted on it-.-
6. Okay,enough with all the shits now.Yesterday was my first lesson for this new sem and I went into the wrong class.Having a lot of unfamilliar pairs of eyes gazing at me innocently,I said to myself,Oops I did it again.
7. When I worked as parttime salesperson at C&K,I was too excited talking to a customer that my saliva very long n sticky one dripped down-.-
8. My mum caught me stealing my cousin's money when I was 7.I wanted to buy the colour pencils contained in a very fancy PINK box.
9. When I joined scout camping,most of my clothes STINK.I very lapsap one mixed dirty and clean clothes together.
10. CNY 01'-Bukit Bintang- I was wearing a very sexy red top when few motorcyclists passing by shouted at me, "satu malam berapa??"CELAKA
11. Last year I fell down the staircases in Segi College sliding all the way on my kneels like Michael Jackson.damn it got a lot of bruises-.-
12. My left leg went into the deep longkang outside Maybank and got my knee skin peeled off. Worst part is that I run light,when my mum turned back as I shouted she realised there were many people looking at me.was wearing a very mini skirt.
13. My mummy told me when I was small I didnt know how to walk properly,always tripped my self stepping on my other foot.Ish y I so stupiak one-.-!
14. My cousin's 4 year old daughter asked me in car."Jie jie,Zuo me ni de jiao mao mao de?" It means why your leg hairy one?kektiok now i use hair remover liao k!
15. I like to play bite bite with babies and one unfortunate day my cousin's baby daughter went wild, bit my nose hard and I became badut for the whole day shopping-.-
16. I am superb well-known for being 'late queen' and once i reached 5 minutes earlier in Miss Fiona's class.She yelled at me "Is that really you Evelyn????" -.-!
17. My troublesome aka ngiao ji mum wanted to buy ginger and there she started to choose pick and break em into pieces and take the good ones.Less than 2 minutes,fight fired between her and the seller,whole tamu(market) can hear their screams-.-
18. When i got down the car to work,mum told me that I wore my pants terbalik.I ran to the toilet as fast as my feet can bring me cos I LATE LIAO-.-
19. At banquet's toilet,a boy was searching for his mummy calling "mama mama" then he took a peep under my toilet door.OMG!kurang ajar betul
20. Form2-Being the usual SYOK SENDIRI me,I was thinking why on earth all the guys at the bus stop staring at me when i got into my mum's car until my mum told me to look at the seriously crashed car bonet and bumper that she got in car accident just before picking me up.LOL
21. I dont know why is this embarassing but when I got quite a lot of roses on Valentines Day I gave em to my classmates.
22. I made each and every handbags of mine like MBKS rubbish bin.haha all my close friends know this
23. I cried like baby when I lost my GD55 phone in high school and had gangs of my friends searching for it.
24. Wore different shoes out and realised it in car on the way to shopping.
25. very embarasseddddddddddddddd that I did a lot of embarassing things(a lot unmentioned yet) and I am pretty sure that I will keep doing a lot more.

I tag..

Didnt I mention this is a tag??Haha created by EVE one^^~

• Lwm
• aaron
• sherlene
• sharlene
• changcs
• yen
• rosemary
• nic chong
• harry
• bian
• you reading this=p

#no excuses allowed for not doing this o.Dont tell me you never do something embarassing.

Sweet sweet love^^~

This advertisement is so so so cute and sweet=)

His teeth are so cute^_^

*Happy 51st birthday Msia*

Love,

Sick Eve...

might be true?

The Bottom Line
Beware of getting stuck in a system -- you need to maintain your own identity now.
In Detail
Good manners have always helped you get along with people who other people find to be rude or otherwise annoying. This has been a bit of a curse from time to time, like when you get stuck talking to them at a party when you'd rather be chatting up that cutie across the room. But all of this kindness has been helping you rack up some serious karma points. Do beware of getting stuck in this system -- it's time to transition out of being friendly to everyone. It's just not necessary anymore.

People who think that they know me well but in fact not might perceive me as a very 'lawa',arrogant person.In fact,I admit that as to those ppl who i do not know personally i tend to behave 'cool' and quiet to em'.I mean,I wont simply go and talk to ppl I dont know la.I might not even bother to smile at em' cos i dowan to be thought as NUTS but of course this probably mislead ppl to think i am SOMBONG.
Anyway,if you are one of my friend,you ll definitely know the 'real/true person' of me.
CRAZY,fool,funny,'over-friendly',playful,talkative and lotsa other crazy attitudes u will name me.
The point I'd like to discuss further is 'over-friendly'.I'm not trying to indicate that I am a good friend.But I am the type of person who will spend her last penny to help her friend in need or to buy smt for her friends.There are both sides of coin.Positively,people ll think that I am a nice person.Negatively,I treat all of my friends equally nice and thus sometimes I am being 'disappreciated'.In another words,I treat someone nicely who in fact does not deserve my good deed at all.
All of us know very well,in our lives,we do make and have a lot of friends,but how many out of these friends are true friends I guess we all know in our heart.
Hrm...anyway,despite many incidents that i got 'disappreciation',I have no regrets that I behave and treat all my friends nicely n sincerely.For me,as long I feel happy,I have no regrets doing that particular thing.Although,sometimes it hurted me,and I do feel disappointed but He knows what I am doing.Anyway,I am starting to learn FAMILY is much more important and truthful in their behaviour.For eg,siblings may always behave in rude manner to each other but at times of difficulties they wont leave each other helplessly.But some so called 'friends' will.
p/s:Sorry Evon for the being cut up rough with you.I also dont know why I 'zhao ni de cha' the other day-.- [sisters forever]

I am just a coward

I am just a coward.
1 hour and forty minutes ago,I ve just witnessed a road acc and drove away in fear,now being unable to make myself sleep as i cant help myself not to think bout the accident.What I can do now is actually blog bout it???What a failure I am.
Well the real thing that happened just now is like this:
I was driving back to my house with my sis,Evon at my side.Two of us.It was then raining,getting heavier n heavier.Stopped at the first red light along the road heading to MJC(near sunny hill) then the second one,which was the place that the accident happened.ALthough it was a green light to have a right turning to stapok road which i could ve used to reach my house,I did not and instead I stopped again at the red light.I did realised there was a motorcycle on the left land,next to me,quite bit in front of my sight though.Then there was this car coming from the back,driving on the left land.Feeling awkward that the car did not slow down despite it was still red light and it was getting very near the bike,I felt like giving a honk to that car BUT EVERYTHING IS JUST TOO LATE.Just as what i feared,the car just moved on and knocked into the bike,I witnessed with my own eyes,something,probably the bike was thrown bout few metres above the air then down,boom.Being stunted,I just couldnt help it but to cover my eyes with my palms and screamed out as loud as I can.Evon who was not aware of what happened at all also followed me and did the same(she memang lidat one,more coward than anyone)...This happened for only few seconds as i wanted to confirm if the motorcyclist is ok or what,so i tried to observe.I saw the car driver came down,smoking and with anger expression on his face(wtf)...By then it was green light for my direction so Evon perhaps being frightened kept on asking me to drive away.I think i remember I asked her to have a look if anyone injured she said she saw someone(not the driver) squatting/sitting on the roadside.So being a bit relieved and believing that no death is involved I JUST DROVE AWAY-.-
Rain was so so so heavy then that i couldnt see anything,even with the max.wiper my vision is totally blur.Walking up the staircase,i reminded Evon not to tell mum about the incident otherwise she might not allow me to drive out at night anymore.
However,the moment I stepped into my house the guilt feeling appeared in myself.
I felt stupid n regret for not doing my part to help or at least to double confirm that that motorcyclist is ok or not.As for you who had encountered this more or less similar situation I am sure you sure ll note remember what u actually witnessed.Perhaps me being nervous I doubt what i saw and wat actually happened coincide.I thought i saw something was stuck underneath the car but if that was the case why Evon later told me that she saw the bike is somewhere else.I m blaming myself for not at least do smt bout it,eg:call police.Imagine,with omission on my part for not doing anything..
a)The motorcyclist was seen by my sis squatting/sitting at the roadside.Does this mean that he is ok?He might ve suffered serious internal injuries.How if the car driver being selfish n irresposible,drove away leaving the victim in such heavy rainy nite?
b)was there another passenger on the bike?if so,where was he/she?is she/he ok?
c)will the car driver who seemed to be angry,but supposed to be and should sorry bout the incident, just commit hit and run.......and then leave the motorcyclist?
d)the motorcyclist might be injured not externally,thus he thought it shall b alright and ve no any medical check up??*hope he will be alright*
e)since i dont do anything,the police might never know boutthis accident and therefore the driver escape from his responsibility on the damage of the bike n also injuries suffered by the victim?..and i ll never get to know if the person is ok?and forever live in guilt?*hope he is ok*
You might be wondering,why do i need to worry so much,why dont just lodge a police report?I was thinking.If i was to do so,I must tell my mum first.I know her very well.She would ve told me not to be so kepoh la.In fact she ll definitely nag this and that.Perhaps she'd say,"see lar see lar...how if u r the one who get involved in the acc....see lar,who ask you come back so late....bla bla bla".You know la,the typical mum attitude.
But,i m thinking,what if my little help/action can do a big difference?Not only in assuring/determining the matter of life and death of the victim,maybe also about convictin g the stupid careless driver??????
Hrm,my deepest thought now is that...
I might be the one who is involved in the acc.*touch wood*..
This incident reminded me the way I usually drive,especially when it doesnt rain.
Reckless.Fast but unstable.Haolian,kiasu.
hrm all these might cause life/lives.

Pls.All of u out there.Drive safely.And i really do hope the ppl involved is/are fine.*pray*

=( e.m.o

just finished watching Disc A edy cried,burst into tears like siao liao.

Now watching Disc B..

Pls do ve a watch,it is a very touching Indonesian movie,great story-line...

mIXED.feeliNG

Despite the fact that i did badly in my economics I am very happy to score an A in my Law paper=) 30 plus candidates sat for this paper last June,ONLY ten passed,ONLY 3 got A and I m one of em!Yuuhuu~However,flashing back to the day i got to know my result,that's last wednesday,which was earlier than we were informed it would be released...
Ivy:Evelyn,Yen told me result's out thus i checked ours and know what??????You got A for ur law lar!
Eve:*giving her a -.- sweat look* you lie!where got so early can know result de?Online checking also not available yet.
Ivy:REal!I m not cheating u.*showing me her small paper with our grades for each subject written on it*
EVe:OMG!Am I dreaming???*pinch myself to make sure I am not dreaming*
LOL.The subject which I was kinda sure I will get 'can-show-pp' 's result supposed to be Econs.But the fact is the other way round...I MISERABLY got a D for it and in fact got an A for a subject that i had no any confidence in scoring a good grade-.-!what the....Anyway,janji i dapat continue,sik perlu retake papers then ok liao....
However the news that followed the good news delivered to me was haunting me these few days.Although I am very happy with my own result,at the same time i feel sad for my frens who cannot make it thru this time.Of course most of em need to resit,while waiting for their paper next June,they ll most probably sit in LLB 1st year class which they ve to pay for it you know lah Segi is well known for sucking blood(our money)!
There are a lot stuffs to be done thus.Eg:Class enrollment,Cert cash-in...which i need to settle these 2 weeks b4 my yr 2 class commences on the 1st of september.*COUGH*so...whoever wanna 'date' me out,pls do so in these two weeks cos after this I'll be busy with my very-packed class schedule.Rajin konon-.-
Oh well,and to those who are interested in joining Segi's prom nite this coming October at swak club tell me ya...I can help to inform n get ur ticket from Rachel the pretty counsellor of my college lo=p

Reminded

This is like...so weird yet I thank Lord for arranging this moment ..
About 4 hrs ago,after my bath i decided to make myself zz
It was near to 12am then..
I m not sure whether i'm abnormal or what..
I tend to be excited bout what-to-do the following day n thus suffer insomnia(sleep disorder) at night..
And did so.
So,I onlined using my phone for the next freaking 3 hrs plus..lying on the bed in a-16 degree air conditioned room..
Eventually, i read this blog which i f0und randomly...
Read,read and read...
Until the part she mentioned bout her family..
She called her dad 'Daydie'..
Out of the blue..
This REMINDED of how i called my dad.
I dont mean to be silly
To express how pityful I am..
Similarly,I never intend to leave an impression on you that i'm just a gal that misses her dad so so much...
words cannot describe how much is that 'so so much'..
So,i started to utter it out..
'Papa'...
Then the second time,i spoke a bit louder..
'PAPA'..
In no time,my tears rolled down my cheeks...
non-stop..
It is so crazy.
In this little cold room..
I felt my tears were so warm..
to the extend that they hurt my cheek lil bit..
Only at this moment...
I am reminded how much i miss him all this while..
without being able to truly expressing it to anyone for quite a long time..
How much I miss Him trying to annoy the evil out of my sis...
How much i miss Him giving us long lectures on 'life's theory'..
How much i miss Him tenderly,lovingly 'reserved' all my sis n my fav food that mum cooked for us..
How much I miss Him enjoying his happy hour having plenty of good wine with my uncle,his best listener..
How much I miss the mornings when i used to be awakened by his company lorry's noise when he get off to work as early as 4am..
How much I miss the strong smell of his uniform when he got back from work,MLNG(gas companY)..
How much i miss the moment where Mum and Papa shouted 'goal' or 'woow' watching late football match and therefore pissed Von n me off...
How much i miss Him never failing to bring back home a pack of ice creams n chocolates to cheer my sis n me up all the time...
How much I miss a dad who cared nothing bout himself but us,his princess-es...
How much i miss the time i sneaked and tried to use his cellphone to send sms-es to my frens when mine ran out of credits and he uttered nothing though later he finds out...
How much I miss the 'PAPA fried noodle' that he invented using Maggie Mee...
How much I miss Him giving me voices of supports,understandings,encouragements,advices..
How much I miss the moment where Evon nagged him for the excess amount of angpao(red packet) he gave me compared to hers...
How much I miss the moment he brought me out and at times he happened to bump into his frens/colleague,without even them bothered to know,he would just proudly said to them with his hand tapping my shoulder,"this is my daughter"...
How much I miss him having attended my kindergarten's graduation performance,my dancong and taped every second of it..
And also the last time he got himself involved in an activity concerning my sch,that was when I got NO one in form 3 and was to received the cert and gifts for that on stage..
How much I miss every single of his actions,thoughts,words spoken to me..
I tried to flashback every moment i spent with him,every moment we spent together as a family in whole..
I tried to memorize them,I just fear that someone attempts or someday all these memories would just fade away...
I hate it so much that I have to be 'reminded' of Him whenever i see others having their dad-s around with em..
Cos i dont want to be reminded,I'd choose never want Him to be apart from me..
I hate it so much that i ve to pinch myself to make sure This HAs happened..
It has been a fact that i can no longer see him as i used to everyday..
It is not merely a nightmare..
Infact,It is a nightmare..
The difference is only that I might never be awake from this nightmare...endless nightmare..
I hate it so much when i do talk to myself at nights before i sleep on my bed..
"Papa,how are you?..today i went to.../did this.../this terrible fellow pissed me off.../"
--tried to complain to him all the misfortunes that happened to me everyday or
--tried to share with him my times of glory/happiness...
But i seriously doubt it if he ever heard it...
I hate it so much when i 'talked' to him..
Papa,be strong as I tried to..This is just temporary..
As all these happened on us bcos of MONEy aka root of evil..
Be strong,take good care of urself,be healthy always,wait for me..
Wait for me to graduate,to find a stable job overseas..
And let me play my role as a good daughter..
To cherish u n mum..
Dont worry,i'll definitely take good care of evon..Lead her in her life..
as u always asked me to..
Though i tend to be mean/impatient to her at times...
But i ll always remember ur words..
Papa,as i said earlier,words cannot show the extent of my thoughts and blessings on u..
This is just a small part of things i wanted u to know..
If i ever could,I'd scream to the world at large..
PAPA aka Princess evelyn's king dad...
Where are you?
Do you know how much i miss you????
but i just cant...

[After a Deep Thought]

Why?
Why am i repeating the same mistake all the time?
Greatest error:
Because i believed in love once,i was hurt.
Because i was hurt,i dare not to love and to be loved.
Because i dare not to love and to be loved,i hurt a number of people who i treasured.
Because so,i found my life is meaningless.
Because i found my life meaningless,quite a few people tried to convince me to think otherwise.
Because so,i'm in this particular realtionship.
But because all this,once again i realised...
My greatest error is that as i'm seacrhing for a perfect relationship,the 'right one',
I ended up in this relationship.
I realised,
I'm in this state not because i found the right one,but
it was because i tried to find a right relationship.
=(

-.-

very der tired
looking for jobs for like......i dunno la..
seemed so desperate to get a job
LOL
*bankruptcy now k*

NOt 100%true but 99%...hehe (-.-'''')

cool personality test
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

i.a.m.s.t.i.l.l.h.e.r.e

I'm the worst,horrible,terrible,most stupid SOTONG who has just missed my flight to kl today because I FORGOT TO BRING MY I.C WITH ME!!!!!
*bang my head on the wall as hard as i could,faints*

why

Le Le is tremendously happy todAy.
He's got my bro,his dad to celebrate this special day.
I ve been unexceptionally unhappy for these years' today.
Dad,happy Father's day.
happy?

-.-

Law paper 1->tmr
and i got SICK now??????????????????????

=) fairy tale?

hope so!

Add oil Add oil !![but NOT the price please-.-!]

before recent increment in oil price.....
driving*
to segi:80-85 km/hr
jln stephen yong/mjc road:at nite-110km/hr
day tym-90-100km/hr
jln stampin/to airport:120-125m/hr

after increment increment in oil price......
to segi:20-30km/hr
jln stephen yong/mjc road:nite-75km/hr
day-50km/hr
jln stampin/to airport:80km/hr-.-! *drops jaw*

LOL with the speed now even APEK who is jogging one also can overtake me man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!what the freaking increment in the price of oil???????

before horrifying increment in rice price....
lunch and dinner*
me:mum i cannot eat liao.....
mao mao:k lah..nevermind my sweetheart,just eat the vege and finish ur soup...
me:yeahhpie!

after the horrifying increment in rice price...
me:mum.....
mao mao:EAT UNTIL FINISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i tell you what...initially the normal market price is 36 ringgit per kilogramme,then increased til 45..2 days ago,it is 55 ringgit!!!!i'm buying better graded,higher quality fragrance rice and now you are trying to tell me you don wanna eat????????????????how dare you?
me:......................
mao mao:dont let me see 1 rice left on ur plate
me:-.-!! *half neh?*
disclaimer:I'm NOT racist and i will not be one.But you-know-who you-are are trying to make us,as a multi-racial country all in mess..i have a lot of malay frens one you know????!!!!!not to mention all their names here.MY SAYANG,VEE is the best example!So,pls make this clear.this post is not aimed towards non-chinese but towards you-the blood-sucker*
LOL what the....???????????????????hey i know...lot of us chinese make the majoring proportion in acquiring higher education and in areas which r more pro and 'ummph' such as medicine,engineering,accounting and law studies *COUGH* but are you trying to force us into FARMER-ING like those ppl of ur kind,as it seems this area is them most profit -making one now????????????????????????i know i know..no offence!i dont look down on farmers,but i look down n VAMPIRES like you,yesh you,you-know-who-you-are!!!!
*i'm freakingly angry now because i can no longer keep fit by not having my plate of rice finished!!!my mum ll kill me due to depression suffered from the price increment both in oil and rice-.-

lol diao-it!(i know me rude!)bopian...tak apa tak apa....i'm not the one who's gonna pay for the car petrol ma,i know...BUT wui...YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE,listen here...my parent and parents of my frens pay tax one u know!dah lah wat we earn u impose tax,we study hard hard but cannot get scholarship as we all know there are diff marking scheme for diff group of PEOPLE.....,so our parents need to korek out their money,YESH ITS THEIR MONEY not urs to send us to private college,uni....and now u trying to cekik us to death???man....NO AIR NO AIR
ahem listen ah pls.....when i got my BUTT settled in QUT and get a steady job there,i'm not coming back here to 'pay ur good deed'....i'll bring my mama and sis over brisbane so that at there their BUTTs can rest peacefully !!!When that day arrives,TAMBAH HARGA SAJALAH,i give no damn.NEGARA INFLATION,not bad what ..translated to eng,our BOLEH BOLEH country's name...

stop emo-ing eve[i didnt-.-]

50 cool facts
1)我以為小鳥飛不過滄海，是以為小鳥沒有飛過滄海的勇氣，十年以後我才發現，不是小鳥飛不過去，而是滄海的那一頭，早已沒有了等待……
2.你走的那天，我決定不掉淚，迎著風撐著眼簾用力不眨眼……
3.多謝你的絕情，讓我學會死心……
4.帶著一根煙.浪跡天涯……
5.木頭對火說:「抱我」! 火擁抱了木頭`木頭微笑著化為灰燼! 火哭了!淚水熄滅了自己……當木頭愛上烈火注定會被燒傷……
6.當眼淚流下來，才知道，分開也是另一種明白。7.我真的愛你，閉上眼，以為我能忘記，但流下的眼淚，卻沒有騙到自己……
8.回家的路上我哭了，眼淚再一次崩潰孓.無能為力這樣走著，再也不敢驕傲奢求了。我還能夠說些什麼，我還能夠做些什麼？我好希望你會聽見， 因為愛你我讓你走了……
9.不要輕易說愛，許下的承諾就是欠下的債！
10.是我的終究是我的`我終歸是你的一個過客 `你始終不愛我`注定我和你就是什麼都不會發生` 注定`注定只是注定`不管我怎麼跨越 不管我怎麼想靠近你 `你還是會離開我的`我好想你`好想好想你`好想好想見你
11. 臉上的快樂，別人看得到。心裡的痛又有誰能感覺到.
12.分手後不可以做朋友,因為彼此傷害過.不可以做敵人.因為彼此深愛過,所以我們變成了最熟悉的陌生人.
13.有的人與人之間的相遇就像是流星,瞬間迸發出令人羨慕的火花,卻注定只是匆匆而過.
14. 時間會慢慢沉澱，有些人會在你心底慢慢模糊。學會放手，你的幸福需要自己的成全。
15.我能感覺到你的心痛，你有你說不出的無奈...但是你做出一副無所謂的樣子，你越是這樣我就越難受`
16. 有些的時候，正是為了愛才悄悄躲開.躲開的是身影，躲不開的卻是那份默默的情懷。
17. 愛到分才顯珍貴，很多人都不懂珍惜擁有.只到失去才看到，其實那最熟悉的才是最珍貴的.
18.有時，愛也是種傷害.殘忍的人，選擇傷害別人，善良的人，選擇傷害自己.
19.你走了，帶著我全部的愛走了，只是一句分手.我忍著眼淚看著你的背影，好想最後在抱你一次，好想在對你說一次「我愛你」
20. 淋過雨的空氣， 疲倦了的傷心，我記憶裡的童話已經慢慢的融化.
21.既然愛，為什麼不說出口，有些東西失去了，就在也回不來了！
22. 相愛是種感覺，當這種感覺已經不在時，我卻還在勉強自己，這叫責任！分手是種勇氣！當這種勇氣已經不在時，我卻還在鼓勵自己，這叫悲壯！
-23. 人生不止，寂寞不已。寂寞人生愛無休，寂寞是愛永遠的主題.我和我的影子獨處.它說它有悄悄話想跟我說.它說它很想念你^ 原來`我和我的影子`都在想你`
24.在完美的彼岸剛剛上演了一場悲劇，所有的血與淚在枯萎的荊棘蘊育出一個花蕾，它將經歷輪迴的七場雷雨，然後綻放在潮濕的空氣中……
25.魚上鉤了，那是因為魚愛上了漁夫，它願用生命來博漁夫一笑……
26.喜歡在你身上留下屬於我的印記，卻不曾記起你從未屬於過我……
27.如果有一天，不再喜歡你了，我的生活會不會又像從前那樣墮落，頹廢…我不想再要那樣的生活，所以，在我還沒有放棄你之前，請你,至少要喜歡上我……
28.其實我一直在你身邊守候,等你靠在我肩上訴說,會不會有那麼一天,你的溫柔都屬於我,我不會再讓你難過,讓你的淚再流!
29.你當我是個風箏,要不把我放了,要不然收好帶回家,別用一條看不見的情思拴著我,讓我心傷.
30.窗外下著雪，泡一杯咖啡，握到它涼了，才知道又想起了你。我的期待你如何才能明白！
31.第一次哭是因為你不在，第一次笑是因為遇到你，第一次笑著流淚是因為不能擁有你！
32.歲月就像一條河，左岸是無法忘卻的回憶，右岸是值得把握的青春年華，中間飛快流淌的，是年輕隱隱的傷感。世間有許多美好的東西，但真正屬於自己的卻並不多。
33.我們的生活有太多無奈，我們無法改變，也無力去改變，更糟的是，我們失去了改變的想法……
34.看庭前花開花落，榮辱不驚，望天上雲卷雲舒，去留無意。 在這個紛繞的世俗世界裡，能夠學會用一顆平常的心去對待周圍的一切，也是一種境界。
35.人生最遺憾的,莫過於,輕易地放棄了不該放棄的,固執地,堅持了不該堅持的……
36.簡單安靜的生活其實不幸福` 所以我只擁抱剎那`綿延持久的感覺根本不快樂 `所以我只信仰瞬間 ``
37.有些失去是注定的,有些緣分是永遠不會有結果的.愛一個人不一定會擁有,擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛她……
38.心已死,淚也干,不堪回首魂亦牽.夢驚醒,不了情,往事如煙揮不去.亦虛亦實,亦愛亦恨,葉落無聲花自殘.只道是,尋尋覓覓,冷冷清清,淒淒慘慘戚戚;卻無奈,天長地久有時盡,此恨綿綿無絕期.
39.世界上沒有任何東西可以永恆。如果它流動，它就流走；如果它存著，它就乾涸；如果它生長，它就慢慢凋零。
40.一個做女人的痛苦:當她和她所愛的男人有了肉體關係以後，她就很自然地把這種關係視為一種永遠，但男人卻可以不同，他們可能只會覺得那是生存方式的又一種演繹。正如書上說的：男女之間，在沒有婚姻的承諾前，還是保持簡單的關係為好，否則，真的沒有歲月可以回頭.
41.如果，不幸福，如果，不快樂，那就放手吧；如果，捨不得、放不下，那就痛苦吧。
42.人生短短幾十年，不要給自己留下了什麼遺憾，想笑就笑，想哭就哭，該愛的時候就去愛，無謂壓抑自己。人生的苦悶有二，一是慾望沒有被滿足，二是它得到了滿足。
43.所謂花心，就是有了愛情和麵包，還想吃蛋糕的心情；所謂外遇，就是潛出圍城，跌入陷阱；所謂浪漫，就是幫老婆買包心菜時，還會順手帶回一支玫瑰花；所謂廚房，就是結婚時紅地毯通向的正前方……
44.不敢說出口,因為我膽小,因為如果你拒絕,我以後就不能夠再見到你了,寧願默默的愛著你,不能讓你知道,直到,直到你投進別人的環抱!
45.一個人想事好想找個人來陪。一個人失去了自己。不知還有沒有要在追的可望。
46.這個世界就這麼不完美。你想得到些什麼就不得不失去些什麼。
47.戀愛，在感情上，當你想征服對方的時候，實際上已經在一定程度上被對方征服了。首先是對方對你的吸引，然後才是你征服對方的慾望。
48.我放下了尊嚴，放下了個性，放下了固執，都只是因為放不下你。
49.如果愛上，就不要輕易放過機會。莽撞，可能使你後悔一陣子；怯懦，卻可能使你後悔一輩子。
50.沒有經歷過愛情的人生是不完整的，沒有經歷過痛苦的愛情是不深刻的。愛情使人生豐富，痛苦使愛情昇華


*terima kasut nic for giving me the link*

m.o.r.e t.h.a.n f.r.ie.n.d.s?

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？ . 你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此， 但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？ 也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。 也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。 　 也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。 也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。 也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。 也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。 也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨 出界线。 . 不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友 的关系。但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比 朋友还多了一份关心。即使不能跟他名正言顺 的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋 友。他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里 却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。 . 他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计 较谁又欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他 们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝 的不确定。每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一 个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘 心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。 你宁愿这样关心他， 总好过你们在一起而有 天会分手。 你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真 的无所不谈。 特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你 的。做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友， 有什么不好呢？你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？ 很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都 当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好 的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果 你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下 去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。 因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了 男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事 不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可 以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可 惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情 况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . .