the moment when I wanted to say NO and yes came out of my mouth

Stumbled upon this in Tumblr. Hmm.. Touching.

cotton candy

This is my current front hair length. SERIOUSLY, THERE ARE MANY TIMES I REALLY CANNOT TAHAN WANNA CUT EM' ALREADY :/ but I tell myself, no Evelyn you cannot do this , you have been wanting to have long front hair you should make it at least once init.

To be honest, I miss my old self. Motivated in doing anything. Simple things make me happy. The way I used to write in this blog can show how different I am now. The current me , I dont love to talk anymore . I dont know why. Maybe, I'll be... better in time !

Cant wait for the room to be ready ! Paint bought ! It's cotton candy PINK ! ♥

dinner i cooked tonight

first day working

coke diet coke lemonade still water sparkling water soda water foster carling stella dry wine half pint one pint two pint hmmmmmm @____@ first day working turned out not bad time passed slowly but i worked from 6-9 only though lol

bought myself these gloves as it is getting COLD

my pau face

my usual dilemma AGAIN !

to cut or not to cut? current length is not short not long ! alang alang ! very sien ! Hmmmph :/

yo

before going out. photo is blurrish. reminds me of cherry. she always love photos of hers taken blurrish lol

edited using mei tu xiu xiu. a very good app. can download it on iphone and also samsung. Definitely ll be using this alot next time. I mean next month onwards : p

And today is her birthday ! Vani aka Bunny ! Recall moments when she was still here in Newcastle. hmm.. she never fail in making us laugh... Miss her !

p/s: cant wait and a bit scared for first day working tomorrow :x i mean later.

black is the colour

going to start working on friday :x so tmr i have to wake up and go to town to find black shirt, black pants, and black shoes ~

Kuching-->Newcastle

Well, this post was saved in draft for few days already. The photo uploader is still not working until today so it's fine, I would just post the rest another day. Maybe I wont. They ll be all uploaded in Facebook though.

So, I went back to Kuching on the 10th of August, arriving on the 11th. Was supposed to go back after graduation but since I check my air ticket last minute, the ticket available was expensive and friends kept on persuading me to stay longer so ..yeah.

I was so emo upon leaving Newcastle. Okay, who don't ? Especially when you stayed for a year and then you get to experience the four different season, yes I was lucky I had autumn, winter, spring and then summer. So, the day before I left, Ling brought me to the town and went shopping. When I walked in those shops, I was so sad, thinking that I won't be able to visit the stores in Eldon Square and buy or wear those clothes anymore. I didn't sleep throughout the night before my flight , I was last minute packing like crazy, I spent hours packing and when my friends went in the room, finding me still packing pathetically on the floor, they start rolling my clothes, put em in my luggage and *tub* it's all done in less than 15 minutes. miracle, isn't it? How guys can finish a task girl needs hours in that short time...girls...

So, emo emo emo saying goodbyes and all to my friends, I went on my journey alone.

Photos that I couldnt upload are those yumcha, outing photos ..nevermind..

We spent our mooncake festival at Cherry's house playing lantern.. and we brought lele and ah xun along.

Me, trying to hang those lanterns on the tree.Oh, I miss my blonde hair. I dyed it dark brown because otherwise I cant do my I.C. Yeah =_= my mum found out that I lost my I.C after checking through my bag and stuff as she usually does..questioning me all the time why I keep on bringing my passport out ..because that is the only thing can prove my identity=_=

Us :)

Then , as usual lah ~ when we were small, we ll play with candles after the lanterns. But, only Desmond and Evon are playing outside the house because Ah Le and Ah Xun are not supposed to learn, yet.

It's a heart-shaped !

The sweet couple..

Okay, now someone tells me why this photo becomes like this :/

Man, looking at this photo makes me hungry ! This is the famous AFC (Angie Fried Chicken) , my mum's na-shou-cai.

We were having potluck at Laura's house. Evon with the fruit salad and Auntie unwrapping the Kueh Tiaw as Bingbing just looking on.. hmmm lazy girl ! haha

Everyone - Ah boy, Cherry, Kevin Liew, Auntie Uncle, Ah beng, Desmond, Evon , Bing Bing .

Uncle and Auntie - very happy. But, of course each time we go to their house, I can tell they miss Nona a lot. Especially, when we talk about going overseas stuff, then or whatsapping and bbm-ing nona. Hmm

Family dinner.

Salted egg crabs. Not nice, unlike the one by Ling Loong at Topspot Seafood but these crabs had so much roes in em ! my goodness. I ate until gelik. Dinner was at Country Court, 3rd mile.

Da Q and Ah xun. I just find this photo very..heartwarming.

Then, we went to watch Mr. Bean ! Johnny English reborn but we had to wait more than an hour in the Spring before the movie starts.

This is Desmond and Ebon waiting outside MBO.

Bingbing was so blur that she tells me the next day, she was wondering why we ngeh ngeh wanted to watch mr bean on that night, forgetting that it is the last night we can watch movie together because I was leaving. Hmmph how bosim. She didn't go with us.

Well, after sorting out financially that I cannot do my master yet, and I don't want to do my CLP in KL, I was thinking of a way to return to Newcastle. So eventually, I made up my mind and decided to return to Newcastle and apply for PSW afterwards.

Me, my backpack and Timaomao, who went straight after work cos my flight was at 8 pm.

I dont know why but each time before I leave, mum would want to have dinner together at KFC. It has been a norm or something =_= I was laughing and wondering..this bunch of people concerns more about the food over me. Hmmmph

Just before I went in the departure gate. Aizat helped to take this photo , it is so funny how he had to wait for me cos I hugged each of them in this photo one by one so you can imagine how long it took lol. Ya, I flew back together with Aizat this round, at least I'm not flying alone.Purposely booked the same flight as his.

Now, I'm living in Gateshead and following photos are the views I get to see everyday. It is across the bridge of Newcastle and we can have the city view, so nice especially at night.

Pardon the blurrish photo of this one. And hmm I'm still very lazy to learn more about photography and also how to fully utilize my dslr.

Til then, current status is graduated, unemployed, waiting for the time to apply psw, finding a stable job, keep on falling sick. Yes, sick. Was having fever. And now. Terrible cough.

Hope the photo uploader is working fine soon and that I will have the mood to update this blog more often. It has been sooooooooo dead. Well, take care and tata!

im so cold.

im so cold.

im so cold.

im so cold.

im so cold.

its so freaking cold out there.

and did i hear that it is supposed to snow today?

hmm

i dont know.

IM SO COLD.

emptiness.

i dont know.

i feel like a fool.

Eve is back in Newcastle!

a very lazy update

guess where I am? I am at Swinburne's library -________- yeah. at first, reading notes, trying to prepare for Leh Ding tomorrow. It will be the last tutoring session I have with him. well, to update all of u a bit, I'm flying back to UK pretty soon, because I have to work and save money for my master! And that would mean another winter yo! but it ll be autumn first. til then, tata.

I AM BACK !!! yuhoo ^^

3 more days

9 days to go..

And I'll be back in Kuching.

Time flies! Oh my gosh! Remembering how I said I ll update this blog frequently just before I flied to UK from M'sia. Not only I didnt do it, I didnt upload a lot of video as I promised, as usual Im pretty much too addicted to FB but recently Im kinda not as active in FB anymore. I guess when Im active it means Im really happy with ma life, Im not recently so ya, hence the disappearance. But hey stupiak eve, u r so gonna leave this place in another 9 days time @_@ Hmm~ oh well. How can I fully utilise these 9 days. and still I have a lot alot of herbalife remaining in those cute bottles fine they are not cute but how. im not going to bring em back maybe i should cos these 9 days i dont feel like torturing myself not eating nice food in UK argh how. zz

Uhm . thats all for now. my mood not very hoh cos ler. got two guys say wanna go carboot sale wor. one of em woke me up at 8,30am so i was gewttign ready until now. very good. 4 hours and 42 minutes have passed. I ve done camwhoring, onlin ing.updating this deadly blog, fb-ing. skype with nona with the lousy lin e. argh buh bai

master of law

CLP

kahwin seh kia? =_=

today I'm officially a degree graduate! photos time! but I really miss my family

Dear Lord, I am very unhappy. Very unhappy. First, my life is messed up. I am very unhappy with myself. Dear Lord, I feel unhappy, I want my old self and my old views of life back. Dear Lord..

First, my sleeping time is a shit.. I dont have enough sleep and my mood is hence a shit too.

second, I ve got my result back. I get what I put in, but im unhappy with myself. Again. And I am now flamed up for my CLP. I ll do better and I ll!

I am gonna sleep now, bbq with the rest tonight at Aaron's place. He moved in with Jasmine and Im gonna live there after my tenancy ends!

Dear Lord, I am sorry. Dear self, I am sorry too.

when things are kept in your heart that it overflows

when things are so wrong you dont know where to start in making em right

when you just feel like sleeping

when you are demotivated

when you are good but you keep on letting yourself down

when you are not being yourself

ANYWAY, I'VE DYED MY HAIR ! err orange-ah lian ka-ler =_____= want to see? havent even post on fb. lang lang aka nona, grace and chuiping has got my photo via whatsapp though : x

NEXT POST WILL BE ON

Lake District and a lot a lot of places I ve been to, a lot a lot of things that have happened yet of which I ve been procrastinating on updating. In this diary of mine. lalala

Ohana

What family means for you? What family means to me, I was born in a very wonderful family, when I was 4 years old, my parents are blessed with another baby girl, aka my sis, Evon. So yes, we have 4 years gap in age difference. Often enough, we are mistaken as twins or at least around the same age or worst case scenario people actually believe it when I tried to say I am the younger one. And from being freaked out, she is now having =____= lame and annoyed expression each time I tried doing that.

If you ask me this question 5 years ago, the answer would be different back then and now.

Our family was a middle-income family. My dad worked in the government sector until I was in my kindy time. Soon enough, as I turned 8, my dad went to Miri to explore , rather altogether a different field of career. We would talked and talked to dad via phone every night. I remember, mum would dial dad's number and she would get my sis and I sitting down next to her near the telephone waiting excitedly for my dad to answer our call.

Then, mum would turn the loudspeaker mode on so that three of us could chat with him at the same time. That was in year 1996. As I was studying in Standard 3 in St Mary, one day my dad finally decide to bring us for a trip in Bintulu-Miri. I remember it was during sunset time that he brought mum, sis and I to Tanjung Batu beach in Bintulu one evening. My mum totally, fell in love with the view and the atmosphere, the relaxing living style in Bintulu. Believe it or not, my mum probably went to Spring Mall in Kuching for less than 20 times, well maybe 30 cos I worked parttime in Charles and Keith before. She never like crowded place. Unless she is spending her leisure time with all those uncles aunties =__= The whole point our dad brought us along for the trip is because he had another job opportunity in Bintulu's MLNG.

So eventually we moved to Bintulu and stay at this place called Pine Court Apartment, my Da Q Meh, QQ, Q Meh, cousins actually tagged along with the moving-house- trip and we had photos of those days at my Qmeh's house I guess. There, started my most beautiful, memorable 7 yrs , happiest chapter of my life.

Why would I say so? Am I not happy now? Well, of course . It is half right, I am still happy, but Ohana means family, family means no one gets left behind. and the problem I am having now is that I forget and I am not applying the principle "expect nothing, appreciate everything", put it short, I dont know how to appreciate. I expect too much. Focus too much on the closed windows, taking all those opened ones for granted.

Writing this post because, these days I am very emotional, friends keep on asking me not to be one, I wonder why, ..I'd be perceived as attention seeker, perhaps everyone needs certain level of attention, care. Whatever it is, what I am trying to say is. Family. What is your definition of family?

If it was not for the past we have been going through, we are not what we are today.

Maybe my sis and I would be like any other spoiled children. We still are, lil daughter in my mum's eyes.

I am writing this because I want all of you to know. How great it feels to be in a family.

I remember scolding one of my bestfriend, to the extend I cried so badly. She was either quarreling with her brother or complaining about her mum's bad mood. I scolded her. We are such close friends. Perhaps thats the very reason I got so angry. I said to her, " wo bu yao ni fa sheng he wo men yi yang de she qing, wo bu yao ni guo wo men guo de she qing cai fa xian, you yi ge mei man de jia you duo hao . wo bu yao ni hou hui "

We either hide it, "fu yan", change topics, or we choose to reveal, normally I'd be the one who tend to share. My sis is not. the type.

We hardly share our personal problems unless we come to a very devastated point I guess. There was a night I feel my blanket is shaky. THe blanket that I shared with her. It is her crying. I was so helpless, I just tried to keep silent, cried, silently. But I know. She knows. Both of us cried.

We have been running from reality. In fact, we are not having 'life' . We no longer watch tv as a family as before, we dont listen to songs via entertainment channels, everything is different and we just dont like to stay at home when mum is not around. We would "run away".

This is my sis. People tend to say that we look alike. People who are close to us would say we dont : ) cos they are able to tell, differentiate, and most of all, we have different personalities.

Erm, I miss my family. Sometimes I am thinking. Emo lai gan ma? Especially if emo due to smt that is not as important as my family.

Evelyn, wake up. This is your priority. Faith, your and Evon's faith. You need to do something alongside your prayers . Faith.